>wish ko lang

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Hindi ako nanonood ng mga programang tulad ng Wish Ko Lang. Nakakaiyak kasi. Ayaw na ayaw ko ng naaawa. Mahirap na kapag nagsimula na akong dalawin at makaramdam nito. Gagana ng husto ang emosyon ko at magsisimula ng bumaliktad ang mundo ko. Problema nila, problema ko na din. Magkakaroon na ko ng madaming wrinkles at sobrang bigat na pakiramdam dahil sisimulan ko nang subukang pasanin ang problema nila. *sigh*

Madalas naaawa ako sa kanila, at sa gitna ng mga awang ito, naisip kong mas kaa-awa ako’t dapat ay sarili ko muna ang dapat kong kaawaan.
Manhid na ata ako dahil nakalimutan ko na ang konsepto ng awa sa sarili.

Pero masarap makishare sa happiness ng iba. Mas masarap kesa sa sarili mong happiness. Db?

(sana mapanalunan nung unang pamilya yung bahay sa Wish ko lang)
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>questions

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When is soon enough? how bad is too bad?how tough is too tough? how terrible is too terrible? how intense is disgust? and that of mine? how far is the end?is it too far? how far is too far? is it near enough? how tired am I?
Questions... questions are what? can they themselves be answers? how? where do answers thrive? or do they hide? will i forever be searching? when does forever stop?... what are answers? are answers solutions? are solutions found in answers?

What was wrong?
what will be wrong tomorrow?
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>definition of undefined

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Now I konow.
Now I understand.
Somehow.
A little.
I hope.
I have found the rationality behind me and him (as if there’s me and him in reality nga!). anyways, as I have said, about the rationality… now I can explain what makes me love him this much. I’ve finally found the answers to my questions.
Now I see rationality. . I am sane. I am sanely fallin’. Hehe..:D This one’s different from before, more acceptable in some ways (kahit sa totoo lang, there is nothing acceptable here! =( sad.=[ ) yah… there is explanation….. somewhat… in some ways…. Still I’m sad…. But at least I’m happy.,..
Now I know.
It’s not just his eyes (that creates smile in my eyes too)….
It’s not just his stares (at me?!) bwahaha… the way he looks that melts my toes… the whole of me. (tudung! ).
I am certain. Not only the way he makes me laugh (as if first hand!).
Not his corney jokes (as if directly to me).
Not even his hi-tech 5110celllphone.
Not only that red shirt (his favorite)
Not the way he would just sleep on wrong places and wrong times.
I know its not just his sweet voice. (haha..why am I grinning like this?) I really am so sure.
I know. Not that white shirt. nor that green one...there is more to this.
Too much that it thrives more than skin deep.

That too much I now have a thought of….
A little grasp of in my hands.
That may or may not
suddenly disappear sooner.

Now I know.
At least.

>>c

>whiskas

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Hunyo. Malakas ang ihip ng hanging habagat na nagmumula sa bukas na mga bintana sa loob ng madilim na silid na iyon. Sumasayaw ang manipis at puting kurtina sa tugtog ng hangin. Maya-maya’y unti-unting umiyak na ang langit; hanggang sa di na nito napigilan ang tuluyang pagbuhos na siyang nagdulot naman ng lalo pang lamig sa malalamyang apat na sulok ng silid na iyon.

Hudyat ng pagtatapos ng tag-araw.

Masakit isipin ang mga nakaraan, lalo pa’t tanto mo ang katotohanang pagsapit ng bukas, o kahit ng kailan pa man ay hindi na babalik pang muli ang halakhakan ng mga ala-alang dito’y nanahang minsan. Sapagkat sila’y mga nangaghilom na masasaynag sugat na lamang ng kahapon at sa kaslukuya’y mga guni-guni na lamang ng lumipas. Mga makukulay na mga panaginip ng mga nagdaang gabi sa ilalim ng matingkad na kadilawan ng buwang sumasayaw sa tugtugin ng katahimikan.

Sapagkat kahit na patuloy ang pagsikat ng araw, hindi palagiang sa iisang eksaktong oras ito kailangang lumitaw at ngumiti sa mundo. Ngunit sa kabila nito’y umiikot pa rin ang daigdig ng walang humpay at patuloy. Nangangahulugan lamang na kahit na walang permanente sa tinatapakan mong lupa at sa espasyong iyong ginagalawan, hindi pa rin kailan ma’y titigil ang bawat nagaganap na mga pagkilos – nanatiling buhay ang mga buhay, at patuloy ang pagdating ng tag-ulan pagkatapos ng tag-araw.

At mananatiling buhay ang mga buhay ano mang uri ng pagbabago ang kaharapin nito. At tuluyang mababaon sa limot ang di na pinagtutuunang-pansin pang mga ala-ala.
Masakit isiping hindi na maibabalik ng kasalukuyan ang nakaraan. At ang nakaraan ay mananatiling taghoy na lamang ng nakaraan. Sa panahong lumipas na di na muling masisilayan pa sapagkat doo’y naghahari ang gabing ipinagkakait ang ningning ng mga butuin at buwang nagdudulot ng lutang na mga kalooban.
Parang minsang pagdapo ng isang munting paru-paro sa bumubukadkad kong mga palad na kailanma’y di na muling mauulit pa sapagkat naglaho na ang bawat paru-paro.

Masakit.

Malupit din.

At malungkot.

Ngunit hindi kung ang nakaraa’y isang pagpapanggap at ang ngayo’y pagsisisi .

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>if you think so..

I am the girl who likes the dream world. I am the dreamy girl who is usually in my own
world.I don't like this one so I make
my own. It's my way to get free of
everything.

What Kind Of Girl Are You?
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>version1.25

Your guts are your glory
(HAAAY. . .KUNG GUSTO KONG MAKA PASA MAN LANG SANA SA EXAM KO!)

So, before you put your head down to that nerve-wrecking Chem16 long exam; or before you take your Math 5 million nth time midterm test. . . comb your hair first, put a good amount of powder on your face, and let your thoughts travel to the following WHAT-TO-DO in test-taking. This may have an effect to your system. . . and maybe, just maybe (without any assurance at all) you’d then find yourself saying “dammit! La na bang mas hihirap pa doon?!� or “that wasn’t even a test enough!� after that supposed to be it-could-have-killed-you exam. Hehehe;p

1. Istep wan.In english, first step. Relax! Believe in yourself! You have the right to do better this time and you can! (simple and precise enough, right?)

2. Analyze ok! Don’t jump into answers. Teachers love to construct, I mean as in construct (they do it with blood and sweat) test questions with a very high level of trickiness inorder to what else...of course, trick the students! Sa tagalog, hanapin ang kiliti ng exam! Pero,remember this: (indeed a fact shittier than shit!) may mga exam na wala talaga kiliti!!

3. Avoid looking at other test-takers! This would only cause you drop-dead depression and severe nervousness (when unlike you, they look normal in situations when they aren’t supposed to).

4. Don’t exaggerate things! Some questions are better that what you expect! Yeah right, that thought that have caused you several sleepless nights could be like “easy� too or “easier� than what you have been expecting.

5. Feel good! Puff some smoke! (joke laang!=) or sing “noong bata pa ako, tinuruan ako ng lolo ng tango…�! -totoy bibbo ito.. (hehe:)

6. Comfort.. Comfort! Dress comfortably! So as not to be bothered if others might be staring on that cleavage or if your panty’s appearing at your back or that you can’t breath ‘coz your pants are too tight. Or, your second option(could work better for you); do the other way around, I mean an overlysexy get-up and let others be distracted by your presence. (naughty you;0)

7. Concentrate! (take note of the exclamation very much;p) Hard! (as in parang BATO!!) and do keep it intact (kht SOBRANG pogi pa ng seatmate mo;)

8. Forget ASAP/I-want-2b-d-first-to-pass (para astig ako) submissions...you still could come into some real answers if you’ll just wait. Wait until something good happens.. ‘coz there always could be.

9. PRAY! This is your first and last resort! Everything can happen with God by your side. You have proven this “fact� right? Remember that everything could be possible if you would just pray! Walang imposible kay God!!! Rivermaya! (pray and believe;)

These are but 9 simple steps into trying to get a decent exam grade. But of course, you have to help yourself too. Exert some real effort to not sleep! Mag-aral ka sana. :)

Now, think about your failures in the past and be aware of how they created you as a better version of your self. Because of those, now you are tougher. And now you can do better. You can get what you want. Satisfy yourself.. :p

…and don’t take regrets, only lessons learned!

>genesis

Let's get this started...

just got started with this new blog. :D parang feels good ah.. well, ummm... got (really) inspired with [bleep]'s (My life) "meaningful yet undiscernable kuno" blog. And with cza's eyes wide open encouragement and a big bunch of exams (psych 115 and 191 LEs) coming this week and whole lot of papers and papers... there I was yesterday, getting so damn busy blogging. and, wait....now, here i am again... busy- blogging --again!

wish this would do me better.... ^_^