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Feeling damned. The exact opposite of vindicated…because I feel lost. Nobody’s talking to me right now. Everyone has their own “more important� thing to care about. It is called love affair by the way. Their love affair.

And I am left behind these walls. Because I am too tired to be in love. To even think of it. What more of letting the feeling flow to my not properly working system. I’ll get more damned that I may not stand. i have more important things to care about too. Only that it is not called love unlike theirs. It makes me lost unfortunately.. too tired of speaking clichés. And thinking about them too. I want…. Well, I actually do not know what I really want. Maybe just to make things “changed�.

Anyways, I also have to mention that many things have changed around me.. only recently in fact. Just this school year. And I must admit, I miss the old times. I could be bitter. And so what? Hell, does it matter? I just don’t want to be in that same situation where I’ve just been. Or, I don’t know. Maybe until now im still trapped. Im trying to get out. Because being there forever would continuously hurt me. I don’t want to be hurt anymore.

Damn, I am talking love shit again. I just told that my “more important� thing to care about/do is not love. Because love means shit right now! Because I am damned hurt!

And I am in love. Still. Shit.